So in two months and 11 days I will be 28 and still I am baby-less. Gah. We haven't been trying because we're still in phase "so how do we pay for the medical bills?" We have come up with a plan but now we're at "so is this economy gonna get any better in the near future?". What looms in my head is the idea that what if we go through all this only to find out we can't have kids anyway. How should I look at that? As a learning experience? As a sign from God? As just another block and move forward to plan "let's adopt!"? I always figured that we would eventually adopt children once we had a few of our own, but if we couldn't we'd just move through to the next step.

I worry alot about not being able to get pregnant and I worry a tad about being pregnant and feeling the symptoms. I only had two people who told me that it didn't hurt one bit, one was mom (she said I popped out no prob.) and the other was a co-worker who loved every minute of it. I have had about 30 or so people tell me that it was beyond painful "but worth it". I know I'm pretty above average in a lot of ways but I'm thinking that I may just be average when it comes to pain. Although, I think I may have a higher pain tolerance than most people. I do have my teeth drilled at the dentist with no novacaine or any other anesthetics.

Well, gotta make kids first before the pain. Besides, doesn't the pain make you feel alive?

Me.