This is the day in which the wicked witch will finally be dead...metaphorically speaking of course. She will only be out of my house for a few months, hopefully maybe more than just a few months. Perhaps some man will take pity on her and decide to string her along for the holidays and then dismiss her in a year or so, so that I will not have to endure her presence for a while...Today is a brand new day! I will think happy thoughts from now on! Happy! I am also planning to pray because there is a power that is strong in prayer. I am shamefully admitting to you all today that I have dismissed prayer as something that would only take up my time but I will do it! Everything seems so fresh and new, though outside it is overcast and gray. There is a stickiness in the air that makes it hard to breathe, but I feel great!
Til later, and I wont impose upon you any of my beliefs because you must find your way, hopefully this entry will plant a seed.

Me

ugh! problems of some sort are occurring with blogs and such...anyhoo I can't believe my brother has a little admirer...haha that's just too funny. I am slowly thinking of writing some such thing or other, hopefully it will be good enough for some sort of merit in the eyes of the world. I just need to lash myself to a seat and begin. However, I am not good with typing on the computer. Not the act of typing itself, but rather just the impersonal feel to it all. I must hie me to a store and purchase paper and pen, or pencil and begin this journey of spinning tales. I hope everyone will enjoy it. How old am I now? I will be a year older in September or rather 1 will be added to my current age and my ultimate goal is to be published in the coming year. It will be the year of the monkey, my year, this coming 2004 and hopefully that is a sign that it really will be my year. I need to devour as much books as I can and hopefully gain some knowledge in writing that will help me out. This year has already been filled with books, 30?40? or maybe more. I just need the inspiration! The muse, the urge? I get tiny glimpses and inklings but not enough for anything. But I will do it!! I say it again, I will do it! Now to bed, for tomorrow is a new day. Night night y'all and take care,

Me

Hello all! I am finally back from New York and I had a great time! I saw my Aunt and cousin whom I haven't seen in years and it was good to see them all. What a wonderful few days it was. We laughed until we cried and then laughed some more. I always have a good time in NY no matter what but this time was just more memorable just because there were so many of us in the house and someone was always cracking a joke or just there to talk to. No one is pretentious, no one is sour and glum and if they are they don't involve any one who isn't interested, and everyone is contented and real. I have a few pictures and soon will have it up online which I will post here when I have a chance...perhaps today or tomorrow. It looks as if it will rain today, very gray and cold. Rich tells me that it's been colder and colder in the mornings, which I actually like because I don't like waking up sticky and drenched in sweat because of the heat. It's good to be back in Massachusetts to my soobee oobee, though I had such a great time in NY that it seems I was only there a day. My cat seems over her no-talking policy concerning my absence. Actually she was very sweet when I came home yesterday. Maybe she has finally realized that I will always come back to her no matter how long I'm gone, or maybe now she just doesn't give a damn. haha She's less coddled nowadays but still as much loved as ever. She woke me several times last night by walking on me asking for pettins. Cute! And she woke me up this mornin for purrings on her favorite bear, which Rich and I are thinking of replacing. I hope it wont be such a heartbreak for her. Bear was such a crucial part of her development. Bear is like her 2nd mama...my other pets...my fish are fine, although my poor blue one seems to have lost all the weight he has recently gained, my Rich is fine and last night he seemed content to cook along with me and eat steak. He hugged me all day yesterday, i guess he missed me a lot. What a baby. haha I missed him too. I am going to begin my summer writing. I hope Kelley will go away soon. Why is that for years we complained about the stink rising off of Jake's litterbox and just because Kelley mentions something now does Linda do something about it? See what I mean? It's a strange relationship that she has to tiptoe around Kelley. Is it in fear of her outlash? She is never "real" when that other one is around. I wonder if she drives safely too, and doesn't jump for her cellphone everytime it rings. If they both died together at the same time that would be fitting. Maybe she just feels that she needs to make Kelley see how "nice" things are now after she ran Kelley off to florida when she turned 18. There's a lot of history and psychology I don't understand in the situation but both can go to the devil for all I care.
Me

damn it! it's too damn early for me! It's Saturday!!! No Stern show, f- it!!

It's Saturday, the day of my MTEL's. I only figured out last night that both tests I am taking today are 4 hours long! Ay-ya-yaa! That mean if i take my time on the last test I will be heading home at 5:30 p.m. and I probably wont get home (with traffic) til 6:30. I am up extremely early today just so that I can assist myself to the train station and head over to Harvard Square. I will, on the way, be listening to the Stern show and I must not forget my headphones or else I'll just be a loser sitting alone with a walkman, sans headphones! Well I must admit I am nervous as heck but extremely confident that I will do well, I always do. hmm it's time to head off. Wish me luck world!

Me
p.s. y'all might not hear from me in the next 5 days or so because I will be heading back to NYc and tomorrow it'll be partay time! wooooooo.
same

It's been raining on and off today. Right now it's beautiful, breezy, bright. I just finished watching the movie "They" which is a Wes Craven movie; he made all the nightmare on elm street movies and some others. It was scary and good. Not at all like the not so good ones I've seen recently. If you ever get a chance to watch "Gacy" don't. It's horrendous. I will watch "Donnie Darko" tomorrow. Hopefully that one's better.

Rich's wicked sister is coming tomorrow. His mom's become really ansy and ridiculous again. She is pretentious and uptight the days before, during, and the days after Kelley is here. So far she almost threw a fit for having the old furniture in the living room for Deb to pick up. She insisted that it should be moved to the garage even though it would be so much easier for everyone involved if it stayed in the living room so that it could be moved out into the car through the front door instead of having to move it all the way down a long, steep and narrow flight of stairs (not to mention dangerous) and maneuver it through tight turns. But of course the house can't be cluttered for one day for Kelley. I laughed over the fact that her silly dog scared Jake the cat out of his litter box and forced him to finish his bowel movements in the living room. what would poor old Kelley ever say about the nasty, nasty stains on the rug. She's been scrubbing today. I wonder what next she'll have to complain about. She's been praying for the rain to stop so she could mow the lawn. This is the third time this week. I am only glad to be out of here during this time; I'm going home on Sunday. I have to put up with lovely K for two days and then I'm gone! Freedom! However I will go with a heavy heart because I will be leaving my beloved "Dems" and Soot the cat for days. Hopefully when I return it will only be one more day and K is gone. Damn her. When the day comes Rich and I will have nothing to do with this family, ever. I hope she doesn't decide to throw a fit while I'm here. How can a 33 year old still throw fits? That's why her life is a mess. She has been left by her two fiances, and doesn't even have the common knowledge to know what a sane person is! Her current roommate's nutty, but she's the one who was stupid enough to pick her out of a bunch of people! Now she has to deal with the problem of trying to get rid of her. And she has the problem of having to deal with the house that she purchased with her second failed attempt at marriage. I hope she doesn't do the stupid thing and marry the next guy that comes along because it's obvious that she hasn't learned to find good, decent people yet. And of course she's porbably like many mid-30 year olds out there desperate to start a family and soon enough we'll find out that she's pregnant with a demon's spawn. I predict that in the next two years we will find her either engaged or already married with a baby on the way, and further down the line we will catch her with two kids in the middle of a divorce. It's the way of her mother and father and her other siblings. Rich has been the only one who knew enough not to fall for that trick, however he's like some werewolf who needs to be locked up at every full moon in order for him not to harm others. He is constantly on the watch for any signs. Thank God I have someone who is not blindly going about his business jumping into every puddle and hole that comes his way. He looks both ways before crossing the street. I love Rich's methodical, level-headedness, although sometimes it can be annoying. I only appreciate it after the fact. haha. He knows this. Can you imagine that he and I have been together for nearly 6 years? That's on the first go. Longer than any one in his family on their first go. His dad's been married three times, mom twice, brother twice (probably on his way to a third), other sister (half) has been through a relationship that left her in financial ruin and is now married to a man Rich and I are convinced is gay; he loves croquet and walking about in tight shorts, no shirt, and drinking topless with his male buddies on the lawn. Nothing wrong with that, but you have to meet him. And of course the other one, who's first fiance cheated on her and then told her it wasn't working out, her second who was a mean alcoholic, in love with guns and who is posted on yahoo love matches if you're interested...click here
He posted this up about a week after the break up. He's much fatter than that. But I digress...So hopefully I don't jinx anything with my negative vibes. Rich and I are good together and that's all I care about.

Me

What is it about muggy days that make you just wanna lay in any cool spot and drift off, only to find that the cool spot has been warmed by your body and you have to shuffle to another cool spot? I woke at some time early this morning to the sounds of thunder and rain against the leaves outside my window. It's strange to wake up that way because I immediately knew what it exactly was and was comforted by it. Rich, on the other hand, told me that he needed comforting...silly rabbit. It has been raining on and off this whole entire day. At times the sun would make an appearance and then one again disappear behind the curtain of clouds. It looks as if it may rain again and I feel as if I am loosely bound to the ground and in one wrench i will just float aimlessly towards the sky. I think my cat also feels the same because she keeps digging her claws into the carpet as if she were afraid of flying away. However, I would love to fly up and be unrooted from the hot earth, although always logical Rich would say that heat rises so the higher I go the hotter it will be, and also I would be closer to the sun, although at the moment there is no sun... so much more like Spock's Vulcan side than human, my timid rabbit. Here is a cool site, for those who might want to know more about chinese astrology, i'm a monkey. Go figure out what your mother is...
haha
Me